
I first learned about the Prophet Joseph Smith when I was 17 years old. Until that time, I’d heard nothing about him until by chance I read his testimony in a missionary edition of the Book of Mormon. Those few paragraphs left a powerful impression on me, but I wasn’t ready to grasp their full meaning until nine months later when I had what I call my pillar of fire experience.
I’d never felt anything like it. It was the most real experience I’d ever had. On that September evening, I was filled with light and hope and peace and a sense of direction for my life, all at the same time. It was the purest, holiest, most redemptive feeling and mental state ever for. It was a spiritual wake up call.
A good friend had testified to me of the divinity of Christ and His restored Church that evening. His words seemed so familiar. They shook me to the core and filled me with a desire to draw closer to Jesus Christ and to learn all I could about the Prophet Joseph, the Book of Mormon, and restored Church of Jesus Christ. I’ve never turned away from that moment. How could I? How could I deny the pure power I experienced?
I’ve been thinking a lot about Joseph this afternoon. He was martyred with his brother Hyrum 175 years ago today, in a jail in Carthage, Illinois. I’ve been in the jail room where he, his brother, and John Taylor were shot. I’ve stood at the window where Joseph fell and died. I experienced the unmistakable pillar of fire there too.
I’ve lived in a home where the Prophet lived with his wife Emma. I’ve walked the very floors he walked, late at night and early in the morning, but never in his shoes. I’ve experienced the pillar of fire there and in 1,000 other ways and on a 1,000 other days.
From the very beginning, I’ve heard mockery and criticism of Joseph. In the beginning, it shocked me. I’d never known anyone to be the object of such bitter accusations. But the contrast of holy fire and bitterness helped me understand that I was onto something very interesting.

Today, Joseph seems to be mocked and derided and denigrated now more than ever. This is no surprise. When he was 17, the angel Moroni appeared to him and gave a prophetic message:
He called me by Joseph Smith-History 1:33; emphasis added.)
, and said unto me that he was a sent from the presence of God to me, and that his name was Moroni; that God had a work for me to do; and that my name should be had for and evil among all nations, kindreds, and tongues, or that it should be both good and evil spoken of among all people. (
People have the freedom to believe whatever they want to believe. I respect that choice. From my first encounter with Joseph over 40 years ago until now, I’ve chosen to trust God, trust Him to teach me, trust Him to open my eyes, trust Him to lead me by His Holy Spirit. Paul taught that this was the pathway to the “things of God”:
For what man them, because they are . (1 Corinthians 2:11–14; emphasis added.)
the things of a man, save the spirit of man which is in him? even so the things of God no man, [by] the of God. Now we have received, not the of the world, but the spirit which is of God; that we might know the things that are freely given to us of God. Which things also we speak, not in the words which man’s teacheth, but which the Holy Ghost ; comparing spiritual things with spiritual. But the not the things of the of God: for they are unto him: neither can he
As persuasive as the arguments were against Joseph’s story, then and today, I could not and cannot in good conscience turn my back on the Holy Ghost. When I’d experienced fire and light, I wanted to live in that light for the rest of my life, not opposed to that light. I couldn’t bring myself to live a gospel of bitterness.
stirreth them up, that he may their souls to destruction. . . . Yea, he stirreth up their hearts to against this work. Yea, he saith unto them: and lie in wait to catch, that ye may destroy; behold, this is no harm. And thus he flattereth them, and telleth them that it is no sin to that they may catch a man in a lie, that they may destroy him. (
I’ve sifted through the rubble and let it fall through my fingers. Some say Joseph was a sinner, a charlatan, a seducer, a miscreant. I’ve looked carefully and prayerfully at the claims against him and the vast array of witnesses in his favor and came to my own conclusion: suspicion is not evidence, evidence is not proof, and “proof” does not tell the whole story. It never does.
The reasoning of earth-bound mind leaves gap, gaps I believe we can only turn to God to fill. I’ve gotten faithful answers to my questions, most of which contradict the world’s views on these matters. I decided at a young age to turn away from the spirit of contention and trust God and His Holy Spirit.
And now, verily, verily, I say unto thee, put your Doctrine and Covenants 11:12–14; see also Micah 6:8.)
in that which to do —yea, to do , to walk , to righteously; and this is my Spirit. Verily, verily, I say unto you, I will impart unto you of my Spirit, which shall your , which shall fill your soul with ; and then shall ye know, or by this shall you know, all things whatsoever you desire of me, which are pertaining unto things of , in faith believing in me that you shall receive. (
I’ve done my best to trust God’s promises, weak and beggarly though I am. I trust His words and His ways, and this is what I’ve come to know: Joseph Smith was a latter-day witness of Jesus Christ and a friend of God. Let men and devils rail against him and his legacy. Here I stand, and by God’s grace, here I remain.
Then . . . the Lord hearkened . . . and a of was written before him for them that feared the Lord, and that thought upon his name. And they shall be , saith the Lord of hosts, in that day when I make up my . . . . Then shall ye return, and between the righteous and the wicked, between him that serveth God and him that serveth him not. (Malachi 3:16–18.)